
| Location | Brockville Ontario Canada |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Premature Birth |
| Date of Birth | 21/11/2007 |
| Date of Death | 21/11/2007 |
| Visitors | 799 since 16/01/2009 |
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Here's My Story
My Name is Christine Dewey but back in 2007 I was Christine Sweeney I have since married.
On Friday, November 16th 2007, I had a my normal 4 week check up at my doctors office and Dr Au did
everything to find my boys heartbeat but with no luck,,he told me not to worry as my heartbeat could
have over powered the babies...So we decided I should go to my ultrasound on the Monday the 19th as
planned....All weekend long I did whatever I could to keep my mind of the fact that my baby could be
dead.....
On the Monday the day of the ultrasound I woke up feeling that everything was fine....So my
boyfriend (now husband) went to work and I did my normal dailey routine with my 2 other
children....Sometime that afternoon I had my ultrasound and my mom her boyfriend at the time and my
2 other kids walked over to the hospital and I was still in high hopes there...
I was called in and was told that no one could come in with me...The tech did everything she was
suppose to do and when she got to the heart she looked at me with a worried look on her face...She
worked hard to find a heartbeat before asking me if I wanted my mom now,,,right there I knew
something was wrong but kept thinking the baby was fine....The tech returned with another tech and
he to tried to find my babies heartbeat and with no luck....I still remember the words he said as he
turned to me and said " I am so sorry we cant find your babies heartbeat,,,your baby as passed"
Those words ached through my body,,Had I had a ultrasound in the beginning of my pregnancy Johnathon
could be here today...Pregnancy Dating is more accurate during the first half of the pregnancy...
Measurement of the sac at
five to seven weeks gives an accuracy of plus or minus ten days.Measuring the crown-rump length
gives an accuracy of plus or minus three days at seven weeks this test can be used from the seventh
to the
fourteenth week.....Between fourteen and twenty-six weeks, the measurement of the biparietal
diameter of the baby's head, the femur length,and the head and abdominal circumference is used; the
accuracy is plus or minus seven to ten days....Since I was according to hospital recocrds 18 weeks 6
days into my pregnancy at the time of my ultrasound there was no way that my due date could have
been correct....Since I had problems with my second pregnancy I should have had ultrasounds in the
first couple of weeks of my pregnancy to ensure everything was going smoothly....The problems I had
with my second pregnancy was a bivascular umbilical cord and with that pregnancy I also had low iron
so with the complcations I was having they should have done early ultrasounds..If it had not been
for my family doctor ordering for the ultrasound i would never have known my son had passed....
I became numb and started to cry uncontrolable and held my mom...I wanted a ultrasound photo of my
baby and my mom flagged down the tech and she kindly printed the best one she could find for me....I
got myself together and went out to the waiting room as my moms then boyfriend was out there with my
2 older childern...
.I got them ready to go home the best I could and I started to cry again , so my moms boyfriend let
me cry on his shoulder as my mom got the kids dressed better then I had...I looked at my mom and
said I wanted my boyfriend (now husband) home from work and the hospital allowed her to call from
there.....Her boyfriend went to get him and my mom made all the phone calls that had to be
made,,,family friends and my doctors office....I was booked to have to have my families Christmas
Pictures the next day so we had to cancelle them....
My doctors office told my mom to take me in that afternoon and we were the last of the actually my
doctor came from home as the office was already closed and the first thing he did was give me a hug
and said he was so sorry and that he never thought that this would happen...He gave me something to
clam my nervs and told me that I had to go to the OBGYN (Tim Froats) the next day.....
.I did not sleep that night all I could do was hold my stomach and cry....I went to the OB's office
and they actually treated me like I was a normal pregnant woman....Pee in a cup and so on..I refused
and said " MY BABY IS DEAD ITS NOT LIKE I A CARRYING A ALIVE BABY"...They took me to a room and I
was giving two options....One was to go home and let the baby pass on its own but with 2 kids at
home and a boyfriend that worked I said no to that option....The second option was to go to the
hospital and give birth to the baby...I choose that and I was booked for 8 am on the 21st of
November......Dr Tim Froats wrote my family doctor a letter Dated November 27 2007 stating that I
Denies any drug or alcohol abuse...I dont even drink alchol and I have never taken any drugs in my
life and for him to say I was using but denying it is wrong of him to do....Dr Froats also has the
dates wrong...My son was born November 21st 2007 not November 28th 2007..This is one of the lines in
that letter he wrote "She will be therefore admitted to the hospital tomorrow for termination of the
Pregnancy" All hospital records stat November 21st 2007 and not Novemebr 28th 2007
I was up all night the night before thinking of my baby and when I finially fell asleep I had maybe
a hours sleep before I had to get up and head out to the hospital to give birth.....Once I got to
the hospital they put me in the same room that I had with my daughter and became to induce
labour....About 7 1/2 hours into labour I gave birth to my baby boy.....He was so small and had ten
toes and ten fingers....
I was asked if I wanted to see him and I was so drianed and tried that I choose not to but stated
later on...According to nurses notes Dr Froats was notifed by phone of Johnathon's birth at 4:00 so
he has no right to state how my son was born since he was not in the room or even in the hospital
the time at the time of his birth...After my son was born my OBGYN (Dr Tim Froats) tried to rip out
my after birth with his bare hands after me yelling at him to stop that it hurt and he kept
going....It took my mother (Nancy Burns) and my husband (William Dewey) to get him to stop.. The
last thing I remember was going for a D & C after my mother yelled at him to stop because she heard
me yelling from down on the 1st floor of the Brockville General Hospital.....Now I have had none
stop problems since then..My monthly is not right and I am going through menopause and I am only 28
years old...
It was the biggest mistake of my life not to see him.....I never knew what happened to my son after
I gave birth to him the hospital would not take picture's or would not let me see him even thou
while visiting a friend (Erin Murphy) I stated I had wanted because the drugs had wore off......The
hospital gave me a bear so I would not leave with empty arms....
For a whole year I never knew where he was or what happened to him,,So just before Christmas last
year (2008) I finally got his Pathology report and it was from CHEO (Children's Hospital Of Eastern
Ontario) just after the new year I contacted them and sure enough my son was still there being used
as a lab rat....
They say I was 18 weeks 6 days when Johnathon was born but he was the size of a 15-16 week
Gestational baby but I was actually 20 weeks along with him so permission is a must and they never
had it period I ever gave them written permission or verbal permission to have my son removed from
the Brockville General Hospital to CHEO and if I had giving written permission then it would have
been with my hospital records and if I had given verbal permission that to would have to be in the
hospital records and there is nothing stating that I gave permission to have him shipped away not
even in the Nurses Notes..In the Nurses notes it states that Johnathon was placed in formalin and
taken to the lab tech for placement in histolopy labs..I have emails from CHEO that states Dr Tim
Froats sent my son to CHEO for tests and I was never ever told where he was until I contacted them
myself . Everytime I called the office to find out where he was Dr Froats refused to tell me where
he was and he told the nurse to say "He is in a place where you cant see"..... Once I knew he was in
CHEO I reguested for him to be returned so I could finally get some closure and I had to wait 2 days
before I was told he would be returned to Brockville General Hospital..
The following Monday I got another email from them stating that my son was shipped that day to were
I live and he never arrived until Wednesday a 2 hour drive took 2 days...So I had to plan a service
for my son that I should have had a year ago.....His service was on Monday January 19th 2009.....All
the pain I had back then as came all back..The numbness the feeling alone and wanting to cry its all
back......Then I get my reports from Dr Tim Froats that I Aborted my dead baby..Sorry but when does
giving birth to my dead son become Abortion......
As stated before they said I was 18 weeks 6 days into my pregnancy but I was 20 weeks along...I had
my monthly the first month of my pregnancy and my Due Date was April 8th 2008...So that would make
me 20 weeks with Johnathon not 18 weeks 6 days....My last period date was July 12th 2007 and He was
born on November 21st 2007 the timelime would make me 5 months pregnant....Once I got his Pathology
report I noticed that Johnathon was 53 grams and thats expected for a 15 week gestational baby, he
measured 10.5 cm from head to bum and thats expected for a 16 week gestional baby, he also measured
14 cm from head to toe which is expected for a 16 week gestational baby but the report also states
that Johnathon passing was greater then 1 week but less then 2 weeks so its only human mature that a
body that has been passed for 1 1/2 would lose weight...Everyone knows that different babies grow at
different rates and that all measurements are subject to inacccuracy because the object being
measured is not linear... Just because my baby was the wieght of at 15-16 week gestational baby does
not mean that he was that age in weeks....
Dr Tim Froats stated in my hospital records that I had a Imcomplete Abortion, Missed Abortion and a
Spontaneous Abortion but a baby born in the second trimester its called a preterm birth not a
abortion...Since I gave birth to my son in the second trimester of my pregnancy he would be
classifed as a preterm birth....Since I was 20 weeks into my Pregnancy Johnathon should have been
classified as a preterm birth and a stillbirth....When a fetus dies while in the womb on or about
the 20-24 weeks into the pregnancy its termed a "Stillbirth"..the precise gestational age definition
varies by country....Premature births or stillbirths are not considered miscarriages but however,
usage of the terms and causes of these events may overlap..A preterm birth is a baby born before the
37th week of pregnancy and very preterm birth is any baby born under 32nd week of pregnancy since my
son was born at 20 weeks of pregnancy that would make him a Very Preterm Birth not a miscarriage or
Abortion...
In Johnathon's Pathology Report they state that Johnathon was an "Unidentifiable Sex" upon arriving
at CHEO but in Dr Froats reports he states that I spontandeously aborted a " Small Male Fetus"...How
can 2 reports state two different things...If Johnathon was of an Unidentifiable sex when he got to
CHEO how was Dr Froats able to know what sex Johnathon was if he had not been more then 14 weeks 4
days in size has he put it...Its totally impossible to know a sex of a child at that gestational
age...The sex of a fetus is determined after 4 months into pregnancy so if Dr Froats was able to
tell the sex of the fetus my son would have had to be somewhere between 16-18 weeks in gestational
size to know the sex of him....
I believe that Froats is relaible for my medical problems now and that the hospital is relaible for
heading over my son to CHEO without asking me first....I have pain and suffering from this and
trying to get answer's to my questions and just to be turned away is something I will not go
for....They need to re think things before writting things done on paper...Christine Kouri
Patient/Family Representative.at CHEO has admitted that there was no written consent or verbal
consent giving to the hospital by me and have stated that they usually "get rid" of the fetus within
3-6 months after arriving there in case any other questions arise..But when she asked how come
Johnathon was still there they could not not ask answer her,,,,She has been very helpful and she was
the one that told me it was Dr Froats that sent Johnathon to CHEO....As I said ealier whenever I
asked Dr Froats what happened to Johnathon and where he went I was never ever told and being his
mother I had every right to know...This will by no means bring my son back but this will help me be
at ease with the loss and all the mix ups with my dates and gestational age of my son....Not
knowning what happened to him and then being told I aborted my dead son when I was induced into
labour and gave birth to my son is hurtful and should not be allowed to be said without making sure
all the dates are correct first...I had my period with my older children....With my oldest son I had
it for the first month of Pregnancy and with my Daughter I had my period for 3 months of my
pregnancy so its possible that my dates are all mixed up and Froats should have known that since he
was the doctor that I had with my daughter..My mother had her period while pregnant with me and so
did my grandmother so like I said before the hospitals or dr's write stuff down on paper they should
make sure all dates are correct..Because my son would have been 20 weeks gestation and just because
he was small in size and length dont mean that my son was not a 20 week gestation..
My sons service was on Monday January 19th @ 2 pm
this is the poem I read at my sons service
Remembering
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Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died, you know..
Dont worry about hurting me further..
The depth of my pain doesn't show
Dont worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside....
Help me heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide....
I'm hurt when you
just keep silent pretending he didn't exist....
I'd rather, you mention my child
Knowing that he has been missed....
You asked me how
I was doing and
I say "pretty good" or "fine"
But healing is something on going
I feel it will last a lifetime
Here is the list of songs that played at his service
♥ ♥ ♥ JOHNATHON'S SERVICE CD SONGS ♥ ♥ ♥
1. ANGELS AMONG US - ALABAMA
2. SLIPPED AWAY - AVRIL LAVIGNE
3. SHOW ME THE MEANING OF BEING LONELY - BACKSTREET BOYS
4. TEARS IN HEAVEN - ERIC CLAPTION
5. SOMEONE'S WATCHING OVER ME - HILARY DUFF
6. MY NAME - GEORGE CANYON
7. ONE SWEET DAY - MARIAH CAREY & BOYZ 2 MEN
8. A PICTURE OF ME WITHOUT YOU - LORRIE MORGAN
9. ANGEL OF MINE - MONICA
10. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU - DOLLY PARTON
11. TOUGH LITTLE BOYS - GARY ALLEN
12. I MISS YOU ALITTLE - JOHN MICHEAL MONTGOMERY
13. I'LL BE MISSING YOU - PUFF DADDY (AKA P. DIDDY)
14. WHAT HURTS THE MOST - RASCAL FLATTS
15. ANGEL - SARAH M
16. HOLES IN THE FLOOR OF HEAVEN - STEVE WARNIER
17. HOW DO I LIVE - TRISHA YEARWOOD
A Birthday In Heaven by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play the fool
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel xxx
A Special Song For My Special Angel
Honey,
Christmas is coming fast and this is the time of year that I would die just to hold you, see you & kiss you...I know thats not going to happen so this is why I feel this song hits my heart......I love you
I'LL BE MISSING YOU COME CHRISTMAS
Did you ever really start to cry over something you just wrote?
Well I'm writing you, my dear st. nick, it's the saddest little note.
Is it fair come this christmas eve that I should be alone,
When he knows how much I'm missing him, would you kindly bring him home?
This girls's letter to santa claus it's gonna tear him up,
When he reads how much I'm missing him it's gonna tear him up.
I'm sure if all his reindeers could arrange room on his sleigh
Then I'd receive a big bright package and he'd be mine today.
I'll be missing you come christmas, wishing hard, my dear,
Missing you come christmas, wishing you were here.
Did you ever really start to cry over something that was said?
Well, I'm writing you, dear santa, it's the saddest thing you ever read.
Is it fair come this christmas time that I should be without you,
You know how much I need you, boy, won't you kindly help me through?
This girl's letter to santa claus it's gonna tear him up,
When he reads how much I'm missing her it's gonna tear him up.
I'm sure he'll write a special note to remind him christmas eve
That he has to mend a broken heart that believes in make believe.
Right above his vip we'll be ranking number one,
No sadder request will he receive he'll know it has to be done.
Hey, santa, if you're my friend, please take heed, it's not pretend.
This girl's letter....
I'm sure if all ....
Oh, santa, I'll be missing you come christmas, wishing hard, my dear,
Missing you come christmas, wishing you were here.
Sending hugs
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†♥† Sending Teddy Bear Hugs to Heaven †♥†
♥†♥ For a Precious Little Boy Johnathon ♥†♥
†♥† Goodnight ♥ Godbless ♥ Sweetheart †♥
Hey Baby Boy
I wish I could turn back time and you would be still be here safe and sound in my womb....Instead I am sitting here counting down the days until your 2nd Angelversary....With a empty heart and questions that will never be answered...Mommy is missing you soooo much has your birthday gets closer....I will forever and always love you sweetheart
dear my lil angel
to my lil angel i love you sooo much i am trying to make you so proud of me i hope ur having fun up there in heaven son i am trying to work things out with ur mommy as our marrage is on a rocky path son please talk to her for me and help ur dad work this out i love you son and ill be with ur mom lighting a candle for u son take care love always ur daddy
Happy Thanksgiving
Hi honey....Mommy misses you soooooo much...Its thanksgiving tomorrow and your not here to be with us at our dinner with your nanny today....Your brothers birthday is next week and mommys is a few days later...This month is sooooo hard with everythin...g that your suppose to be hear for and your not....I just want to hold you and give you a kiss and just say mommy loves you soo much to your face but instead I have to tell that to your urn...God this is soooo hard without you....
THANK YOU MY SWEET BABY BOY
Honey I got the most wonderful news today....Mommies walk to remember will be a news article in the Brockville Voice on October 16th....Thank you honey for giving mommy the strength and will power to do this because if it had not been for you and all... your angel baby friends mommies none of this would be possible...I love you my lil pooh bear until the end of time...
I miss you my sweet baby boy
Hi baby mommy has been thinking about you alot lately and I am sooooo glad you are home but mommy still wishes that she could have held you and gave you a kiss..I miss you so much baby..I dont know what I am doing from one day to the next...But I promise you this that no matter what you will forever be in my heart and my soul...I was seraching the net again and i can across this.....This tells you exactly how I feel...
I Am Always With You
Why did you have to go away and leave your mommy so sad and blue?
I'm right here mommy with you always, I thought you already knew.
How come I can't see you or hold you close to me?
You do see me mommy, you just have to open your eyes and there I'll be.
I'm the sunrise in the morning and the sunset @ night.
I'm that star you see in the sky shinning o' so bright.
I'm that flower in your yard that bloomed the other day.
I'm the beautiful butterfly you stopped and watch play.
I'm that soft whisper you hear when no one's around.
I'm the warmth that heals your heart just when you begin to frown.
I'm the colorful rainbow you sometimes see right after a storm.
I'm always near you mommy, I just take many different forms.
I'm in each smile you make and kiss you give away.
I'm apart of you mommy, in every thought and word you say.
I see the tears you cry for me and hear you pray.
I wipe them away with my kisses and help you make it through the day.
We will forever be together this I know for sure.
God sent me to be with you in all that you will endure.
Mommy I wish you could see my magical set of wings.
Exquisite soft white feathers made from all of God's loving things.
I wrap them around you brining comfort and healing.
As i engulf you let go all the pain your heart is feeling.
We meet in your dreams holding hand in hand.
We walk down beaches dragging our feet in the sand.
You also have some friends up here that love you so.
They watch over you where ever you may go.
So when your feeling sad and blue and think I'm not right here.
Just look around at all the beautiful things and know I am near.
Love Always & Forever My Baby Boy
Mommy
Angels are forever
We were chosen to become the family of a very special child.
Who would come to earth from Heaven and visit for a while.
There are mothers who give birth to babies, too good for this world of men.
They touch our lives for a moment, then travel Home again.
This was to become our destiny. And, Why? We need not know.
For a parents greatest gift is to nurture and love a child with a perfect soul.
Our baby was born an Angel and stopped to pause this way,
Blessing us with sunshine, as we thanked the Lord each day.
Our child was like a ray of perfection and could not journey long,
The source of power being God Himself, quietly called our Angel Home.
As we walk in Springtime meadows, with nature posing all around,
We see the beauty of our little one in every sight and sound.
Whenever I gaze at this beautiful world, or look at a blue sky above,
I know that Angels are Forever
Warming our hearts with their light and love.
Sweet dreams Johnathon xxxx
to a beautifull boy xxxxxxxx
an Angels visit
Oh mummy I'm having so much fun,
I sing and play all day,
the angels are trying to teach me to skip,
but my wings keep getting in the way!.
I checked in on you last night,
and I saw that you were sad,
I gave you a little angel kiss,
so you wouldn't feel so bad.
I also visited daddy last night,
and I saw his heart was broken,
so I leaned in and in his ears,
these words were softly spoken.
Daddy I'm still close to you,
close your eyes and you will see,
I'm in every tear you cry,
because I know how much you love me.
So now precious mummy and daddy,
you know that I am safe,
I will always walk beside you both,
whatever the time or place.
Candice Paula Wills
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